Kelly

The chair I'm sitting in smells like vomit. Yummmmm. I wonder why.

Wooo-Hooo, it's my birthday. I'm sick as a dog. I want to reschedule. At least I have Daisy though (for my birthday Pierce got me a pet baby chicken!!) and she makes me happy except for when she chirps and chirps and chirps ALL NIGHT because she's lonely. I have to keep her in the shower now because she's learned how to jump on top of her water tank thing and jump out of the blue plastic tub where I've been keeping her. Her full name is Daisy Bean. She chirps and CHIRPS really loud and then the second I pick her up she stops. I think she knows her momma. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayy!!! I hope I'm not allergic to her and she's what's making me sick. I don't think that's the problem.

In ONE HOUR AND FIFTY-FIVE MINUTES, Julia Holland will be eighteen years of age and on to legal adulthood. WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOO!! To celebrate this momentous occasion, I present the following lyrics:

I heard you on the wireless back in Fifty Two
Lying awake intent at tuning in on you.
If I was young it didn't stop you coming through.

Oh-a oh

They took the credit for your second symphony.
Rewritten by machine and new technology,
and now I understand the problems you can see.

Oh-a oh
I met your children
Oh-a oh
What did you tell them?

Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Pictures came and broke your heart.

Oh-a-a-a oh

And now we meet in an abandoned studio.
We hear the playback and it seems so long ago.
And you remember the jingles used to go.

Oh-a oh
You were the first one.
Oh-a oh
You were the last one.

Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone to far
Oh-a-aho oh,
Oh-a-aho oh

Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.

In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone to far.
Pictures came and broke your heart, put the blame on VCR.

You are a radio star.
You are a radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.
Video killed the radio star.

... Just so you know.

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

Everyone I know should go. I don't know if I can, I'll be in Area competition for the UIL One-Act Play. I'm going if I can.

IT'S SPRING/SUMMER MOTHERF*CKER!! Wooooo-hoooooo! Trey and I went down to Houston and Galveston for the beginning of spring break and it was glooooorious except for in the end when it was gray and cold and nasty. But it's been nice back here, BEAUTIFUL, Julia's been here and Bojones is here for a tour and I got to see their LAST courtyard show, which was fun. The MOST exciting thing though is that it's SUMMER WEATHER! I can be in my swimsuit and not be damn cold and then I can ACTUALLY go swimming and I can lay in the sun and be happy.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IT'S SUMMER!!

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Each more melodious note I hear
Brings this reproach to me,
That I alone afford the ear,
Who would the music be.

Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)

Tell me if you like these names:

For Girls:
Sophie Grace
Julia Kate
Sidney Cade
Sophie Kate
Julia Grace

For Guys:
Willem Joel
Tomas Cade
Timothy Joel
Trenton Danger
Cole Danger

Today was a weird day. Apparently after he left my house last night, Trey was in a car accident and he's been sort of stressed and freaked out all day. I offered him some space because I got in the way of him doing his homework this weekend and I feel really bad, and he said he didn't need it, which is sweet, and I'm glad he didn't say "yeah, I need some space," but I don't want him to sacrifice his grades for me. I don't want to give hime space, I care about him as much as I ever have, and he doesn't want it, but whether or not either of us wants it, we both need to "take care of business," as Mr. Wyatt would say.

I'm just glad he's okay from last night. I had a dream a few nights ago that we were in an accident and he wasn't wearing his seatbelt and he got hurt, and that really scared me.

Today so far has been BRILLIANT, we cleaned the theater in theater because tonight is the FIRST PUBLIC PERFORMANCE OF THE BEGGAR'S OPERA, $5, 7:00, BE THERE OR BE []. I'm wicked excited, what I've seen of the play so far is marrrrrvelous, wicked funny and well done. I have to be at the school at 4, but other than that, cool. We also got our BRIGHT NEON GREEN t-shirts for festival today, and I feel included and it's nice.

In Jazz Choir there were only seniors in class because everybody else in school was taking the TAKS test today (and it's a bitch that we have to come to school at all), but it was SO MUCH FUN, we did the Ray Charles stuff for the Spring Concert ALL period and since the band was significantly smaller, it felt like we got a LOT done and had SO much fun doing it. We did "Hallelujah, I Just Love Her So," "Georgia on my Mind," and "What I'd Say" and danced around and we are going to blow those old folks at Deer Park away.

I saw Trey just before A Lunch and ran and jumped on him and he kissed me hello. I didn't know if he would kiss me at school. I'm glad he did. My mamaw LOVES him. She's telling everyone she has the chance to that "he's VERY handsome and very polite."

I now know why Trey is so quiet. Two years ago he dated this girl and was very much in love with her, and he got really hurt when it ended. Since then, he says, he's been a little recluse. It almost makes me mad at this girl who I don't even know for how hurt he is/was. He seems really incredulous that I'm with him... he keeps saying something good about me and then "man, why are you with me." He goes waaay out of his way to please me and to be sweet to me, and I love that and I love him and it's definitely what I need after Andre etc., but he needs to know that I would care about him just as much if he didn't.

But we had our first official date last night. Dinner was kinda quiet because when you're just sitting there it's easy to run out of things to say. I didn't feel awkward at all, but I think he did. He went out and bought a brand new shirt for the date, which was sweet. He looked really good too. He took me to Palmer’s (which, for all of you in H-town, is a Benjy's-calibur restaurant in San Marcos, 15ish minutes away from Wimberley) and he wouldn’t let me pay the tip, which is usually my compromise to guys buying me a meal and me wanting to be polite. Then we went back to the lake house where my family, including Mamaw and Johnny (grandparents from KY), was staying the night and watched Ray, with Jamie Foxx. We got most of the way through the movie when we decided to leave and go back to my house in Wimberley and get the Woodstock Documentary that mom and dad got me for Valentines Day. We watched that for a while, and then went back to the lake house to finish Ray. I fell asleep within the first four minutes of us starting it again. Trey finished it (I saw the rest of it today, it’s really good and really well done) and left at about two-thirty to go home. He tucked me into bed (well, couch, I guess) before he left.

He’s so sweet and SO sexy and mostly, he’s so so so good to me. I’m so crazy about him guys, I’m so happy.



NAMI, this is what he looks like. DAMN, is what you’re thinking, right? RIGHT? That’s what I’m thinking…



UH-OH!!

Today, Trey kissed me for the first time and I got into St. Edward's with a $18,000 dollar scholarship. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for eachother: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

-- e.e. cummings

I just keep getting sicker.

I'm siiiiiiiiiiiick.  Shit.  I have to do Singing Valentines on Monday and I don't want to stay sick.  I can't sing like this.  Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, no no no no, my nose is runny and I'm sneezing and coughing and my left eye is all bloodshot and small and I look like a beast.  The Singing Valentines are mehrrr... we got 28 orders, and now we have to ORGANIZE them and that is going to be a bitch, the people singing them don't know their music, and I'm so so so so so so worried and stressed out.  But Trey got me a Valentine's present, a bracelet from Jamacia, so that makes me happy.  It was probably the only good thing that happened this week.  I called him when I got home (at 5:20, it sucked being at school so long) to try to make myself feel better, but he had to go after like 5 minutes, so he wasn't much help.

I wish Mr. York had given us the whole day for the Singing Valentines, full periods, not just the last 5 minutes of each one.  I also wish we had the whole day off to do them, and I wish we didn't have stupid effing block scheduling.  This must have been so much easier at Bellaire compared to here.

Oh, and tonight I have to go to this Valentines Dance because I was gonna go with Rozanna Harrison and dance the night away and it was going to be awesome, but she bailed on me and I allready was all excited and promised Ms. McClintock I would go.  So I have to go to this thing by myself and I'm sick and it's gonna be full of sophomore girls and their boyfriends and I might hate it.  I am going to get them to play Styx though.  Renegade.

Oh Mamma, I'm in fear for my life from the long arm of the law
Law man has put an end to my running and I'm so far from my home
Oh Mamma, I can hear you a crying you're so scared and all alone
Hangman is coming down from the gallows and I don't have very long

The jig is up, the news is out
They finally found me
The renegade who had it made
Retrieved for a bounty
Never more to go astray
This'll be the end today
Of the wanted man

Oh Mama, I've been years on the lam and had a high price on my head
Lawman said 'Get him dead or alive' and it's for sure he'll see me dead
Dear Mama I can hear you cryin', you're so scared and all alone
Hangman is comin' down from the gallows and I don't have very long

The jig is up, the news is out
They finally found me
The renegade who had it made
Retrieved for a bounty
Never more to go astray
The judge'll have revenge today
On the wanted man

Oh Mama, I'm in fear for my life from the long arm of the law
Law man has put an end to my running and I'm so far from my home

The jig is up, the news is out
They finally found me
The renegade who had it made
Retrieved for a bounty
Never more to go astray
This'll be the end today
Of the wanted man

There are about 25 minutes left of practice and I'm soooooo ready to be out of here. It's been a fun practice though, I haven't felt guilty about not doing anything because it's only me and Kelsey and Alyssa and Kelsey and Cole were in a drinking competition before practice, so Kelsey is fun to talk to and Cole is wicked HILARIOUS to watch act. The play is actually really, really good. Today is the first time I've actually watched the play, usually I'm just back here and I hear it or I catch backwards glimpses of it. It's REALLY GOOD.

I made my Valentines today. They're really good, I just got pictures from the internet and put words under them. Really simple, but they're funny and this is the first time I've made my own Valentines. I need to make one with a picture of Ralphie Wiggum that says "You choo-choo choose me?" and then go make copies on cardstock at Kinko's. Ha ha, kinko.

I love the way he's warming up.

( Sexy Party! )